tummy is growling :(
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I lost a pound.
But it still doesn’t make me feel better. I mean, I’m happy because it’s still losing weight but the fact that I ate so much last night just kills me. I seriously never want to eat again, I can still feel it in my stomach and I still feel full. I hate food. I hate weed when you’re not eating. Oh my gosh.
Someone send me asks, please?
2 days of fasting, down the drain.
I am never smoking weed again when I’m fasting. I just got the horrible munchies and I feel like I’m going to die because I’m so full, plus the fact that I will probably gain 928436 pounds. I have never fucking binged like this before I have no clue why widjejenwowkb So fucking disappointed. Now for sure, no fucking food until thanksgiving.
Kill me now.
Here’s my plan:
I want to fast until Thanksgiving, but that seems a little unrealistic to me, so I am at least going to do it until my psychiatrist appt. on Tuesday. If I am to eat anything until then, I will purge. I am so fat, I don’t even understand why I get hungry, my body can eat its disgusting self..
Anyone who wants to do this with me is welcome to. :)
I’m so excited for Thanksgiving and Christmas break!
I can fast all I want.
Intake:
(fasting)
Coffee + creamer = 40 cal
Diet Pepsi = 0 cal
- 3 mile walk (270 cal)
- 100 cal workout
Total: -330 calories
p.s. I totally saved myself, my mom called me after work and said she was getting a veggie pizza for dinner. So I poured a little milk into a bowl and told her I had cereal so we’re having the pizza tomorrow. :)
I just went to the store with my mom.
We got salads, almond milk, fruit, and morning star (vegetarian) chicken nuggets.
I am kind of upset that I have to wait till Monday to eat the nuggets, because if I want to eat anything right now, it’s those. -___-
Today was such a fail…
I can’t even begin to explain how disappointed I am in myself.
So, out at lunch, I ate so little, but to me, it was so much… Everyone was saying “Why aren’t you eating?! You’ve eaten so little.” etc, etc. But I was soooo full from not even a cup of salad, a breadstick, and I could BARELY finish my bowl of soup… I feel like such a disgusting cow…..
So, I am definitely fasting for the rest of the weekend!
On a good note, my moms friends kept saying I look like I’ve lost weight and were going on and on about how they loved my hair and I look really good with bangs, which made me feel a little better!
Anyway, I just wanted to let everyone know that I am a land whale and I need to be punished for my pig-ish ways today. So no food for Jenna this weekend.
Goodnight, darlings.
Tomorrow morning, I go to Portland to shop & have a girls day with my mom and her friends.
I am incredibly excited, although, we of course are going out to lunch.
Hopefully we will be going someplace that is somewhat healthy. But being vegetarian helps make sure that you can only have healthy(ish) options. :)
Other than going to lunch though, I’m going to continue fasting this weekend.
If anyone needs any support with fasting or anything, let me know! My ask is always open.
